:D A smile speaks it all.

I'm a happy kid now. Everything's going the way I want, the way I planned, or the way I guessed. Not to bad right? Papers are a no kick thing, because I really study f hard like burying my heads in the books. Plus, this few days of mugging has been very fruitful so far. Fruitful and full of laughter and joy. Although one of the days, ValG teared. But hope you're back on your feet girl! We're always here for you girl.

So what's about the :D? Of course it says that I'm more than happy. Because Zu and I have come up with a new deal. And we had also settled on which day to go to the Zoo. And I'm too in love with my oboe. Haha, a personalised instrument is always better. I named my oboe, Orbie. Some Hokkien word like serves you right. Haha, Orbieee.

Something happened last night. ValG, don't worry. Nothing is going to happen. He is a nice man, he dotes on you. I'm sure God will see him through his critical stage. Now all you have to do is to study hard, and not make him worry more about your studies. I'll pray everyday. Lord, give him the strength, the will and the power to carry on. They can't live without him. Thank you Father, in Jesus' name.

It's nice to actually trash everything out isn't it? Sorted things out with Davier and I guess both of us finally cleared the misunderstandings which have been there for almost a year? Nobility maybe, that he can just let go like this. 9 months was a struggle for him. Anyhow, yesterday was prolly the worst day in my life. Not gonna elaborate too much but it's my business, yo?

Sorry Leslie, on behalf of all JC students ; Priscilla, ValG, Darryl, Sean, Melvin, Malcom and myself. We had papers and we're unable to attend your birthday bash. We will make up for it, this holiday, after our papers. You shall just wait for our gifts. We've yet to shop for it, so you can tell us what you want, starting from now. Yes, right now, at this very moment! If not we prolly get you something that you dislike.. Urm, we all know..

Didn't see her again. I went to school early for consultation today. Somehow, I think I'm falling to deep in love. Too deep, too deep. I'm afraid that I'm unable to get up once everything one to an end. Anyhow, after the papers, we'll have a one-to-one date. Aha! We going Zoo, and just the both of us! :D

For now, I shall be a good boy.

I finally met her today. Good thing cos it somewhat keeps me motivated. So as usual, I met Priscilla and ValG after my papers. Nothing much but something's whirling again. I'm afraid of losing her. Really.

I'm jealous. I haven't seen her for 2 days. She went out with a guy alone today! Sheeeeesh. I know there's nothing between them, but but.. some weird feelings whirling in my mind.

So, today was another day of mugging with Priscilla, ValG, Sean and Malcom. Malcom finally joined us! Studied at TCC, and as usual it ended up as a talking cock session. But we did studied so, just the matter of how much we studied. I'm happy for her, cos she have finally gotten her squash shoes, shoe bag and racket. When she gets her eye guard, she will complete her squash set and I'll be even happier. Bye, time to work even harder for Bio. A, here I come!

Chilled out with Zu, Malcom, Priscilla, Darryl, ValG, Mabel, Leslie, Melvin, Yongrui, Davier, Sikai, Kelvin, Diya, Skye, Kaixian, Shihan, JOEY, Megan. Note that Joey's name is in bold and caps because it has been donkey years since he turn out for meet up. We had some short talk and guess he's really a protecting 'father'. Asking me not to hurt her etc. I understand, and I won't hurt her, in any way.

So we started out by having dinner-cum-supper at Old Airport Road. Met up at 10 and waited for almost 1 hour for everyone to reach and start dinner. As usual, the endless talks etc, getting updated about eat other, and listening to shit coming out from each other's mouth. Sikai finally found himself a partner. It's yayness cos finally he can stop calling me out to shop. I'm an A level student. Yaya papaya.

RJ's life is hell tough now, I guess ValG is giving herself too much stress. We have multi-JC students last night. NYJC, VJC, HCI, AJC, SRJC, Ex-TJC. Hahaha, not too bad we are Smarties. After dinner we just hang out around that area. Then went over to Kallang for some breeeeeze and real talking session starts. Little did we expect that Joey had so much problems going at home. He kept it mum, he didn't utter a single word about it. All along, we thought he'd forgotten us, but no. He had his problems yet none of us is able to sense it. A failure for once, are we really friends? We didn't sense anything wrong? Can you believe it?

After talking everything out, guess he felt better. Zu and Priscilla cried cos they felt guilty. God, bless Joey. Bless Aunty. They're nice people I swear. Give them the power, the strength, the will, to continue this journey with wide smiles on their faces. Thank you Father once again, in name of Jesus, Amen.

Let's cut everything short. We finished our heart-to-heart talk session at around 3am and went home. Went down to school today for Biology consultation. Sucky I can say. It was a bullshit session, and hell, I wasted 5 hours on Biology, with nothing learnt.

I was prolly the dumbest guy.

I've already found the girl I like. I didn't know what on Earth made you think that I've fallen for you. And little did I know that you liked me. I only love one person, and only one. Thank you Priscilla for helping me to clear it with her, thank you very much. Now I can love her wholeheartedly with no guilt of hurting Sabrina.

Back to my life, anyway Sabrina is not gonna read this so you people don't have to worry about her seeing this, and get hurt by it. Anyway, I've make it clear with her. And I've told Zu about it. We've agreed that we'll have an non-status love. Because we fear history repeating itself. It's a good thing too, we can still treat each other as usual and even if anything happens, we won't face any embarrassment. For now, I'm half attached, till she agree to starting a real relation, then I'm fully attached.

Papers, so far so good, way easier than I excepted (maybe because I mugged like a serious bookworm). After that was studying with Shawn, Miguel and Sab, where all the things started and we cleared the misunderstandings with Priscilla's help. Thank you for coming down specially to AMK Hub to trash things out for me. You're really my holy mama. After that ValG and Mab joined us and we had Newyorknewyork for dinner. After that was a free cab ride from me because I had to meet her and tell her what went wrong.

I cannot hide anything from her, I can't. Because we promised each other to stay truthful to each other. Friends, boy girl friends or whatsoever, the same thing applies. This is a vow for the thirteen (unlucky number) of us also ; Malcom, ValG, Zu, Darryl, Melvin, Priscilla, Mabel, Meifen, Randolph, Liangjie, Nicholas, Marcus and myself. So yes, I told her about everything and she gave me that couldn't-care-less look.

Zu, I know you care. I love you. ;D

It's a shitass long-ago song but still rocking our asses right? Songs don't go outdated if they're real good, yes yes yes you gotta agree with me! Our bus trip home was nice. Darryl went to fetch Priscilla after school. So yup, studied with the both of them till around 5.15pm and waited for Zu's sms. We met on bus 22 and the 20mins ride home was hell fun. Practically screaming and singing on the double-decked. Hahaha, Zu and Darryl influenced me with their "Procrastination, running circles in my head.." and they somehow only remembered this portion of the lyrics, so much so that they kept repeating the same lines, which made the other two of us laughed uncontrolled. Pris was like going.. "Please please please, my shit is coming out.."

I still love the time with them the most. JC mates are fine, and I so love the company of Shawn, Miguel and Sabrina but I guess we got different lives. I prefer night life, and it's hell different from them cos they are really studying kids. Today will be a perfect combination if only Mabel, Malcom, Melvin, Leslie and ValG were together. ValG is busy mugging for her midyears (last minute again). So back to the trip. The entire bus trip was great I can say. After that we slacked at Priscilla's place for quite sometime. Competing who can run up to her room the fastest and we even took timings.

Conclusion: Priscilla has got short legs and that made her the slowest and dumbest runner despite the fact that she always runs up in the morning to get her stuffs at least twice. Now we all know why she's consecutively late for so many times yo?

Praise Lord for the blessings. I'm satisfied, I'm contented and that's more than enough. But Christy and Zachery are both down with severe fever and cough Help them Lord, give them strength. Thank you Father, in Jesus’ name. Amen.

I'm going to the church for morning service. Will be visiting the orphanage and have to do some planning of church's charity event to help the victims of the Sichuan earthquake. Everyday, I see and hear about the touching yet heart wrenching stories. We are the fortunate ones, and we ought to help them with all we can.

Just like yesterday, it reported that a mother used her body to protect her 3 month old daughter from the collapsed wall by kneeling down and sheltering the little girl. She couldn't breathe, she left the world earlier than she should. They found this phone beside her body, stating something like.. "Daughter, if you manage to live on, remember that mommy always love you". Roughly this message. (My Mandarin suck, what more do you expect?) It was indeed touching, and Mal's mom was moved to tears.

Mothers are the greatest. They sacrifices without asking anything in return, they rather suffer themselves then to watch their child suffer. May God have mercy on each soul and bless all the other victims and their family. It's been almost a week, chances are slim, but I believe there are still chances of survival if they persevere on. Lord, bless them once again.

Met Malcom after school and studied at his house from 2pm till 12am. Here I am, at home. Studied Biology and I love studying Bio with Mal because he is as good as my lecturer. Hmmm, Zu's burnt. Aha, loser. Meeting Val, Pris, Darryl and Mal tomorrow to study. Jyjy. So cheeeeena la.

Meeting Zu, ValG, Pris, Malcom, Mel, NC, Liangjie, Edward, Sikai, Ivan, Yongrui, Jasmine, Sheree, Peggy, Darryl, Sean, Jefri, Meiyi, Peipei, Huilin and Randolph for steamboat at 8pm. It's a mini 31st NCO outing. 3 years, still going strong, how cool.

I got 41 over 50 for gp essay test. And another cool thing is that mom bought YOB-832 at $10,810. Jealous? It serves as a motivation for me. She know I've been jellying all along and it's time to motivate me. Yes, steamboat will be one good form of motivation. I'm going Sentosa this Monday with them. Heh, best. Tannnnnnnnn, sun please appear.

Yayness, I shared my troubles with Zu. Omfg, ValG just sms me a roar because she was sleeping and I miss called her. Wtf, it's a ROAR, can you imagine? Hahaha, ValG is just so maddy at times. I'm crapping with Prissssy and Lekkkky now. Your holy mama, pink hot sexy lekky. Hahaha, fuck.

Ok Mabbbby, this is specially for you you you..
Cheer up alright, haha since you've already made them, just be it. It's not that visible also. At least it's better than Prissssy's tan line. It's art girl. Deeply imprinted tattoo, smileeeeee! (Smile and Francis promise to pierce his nippies. Aha!)

Hey, Shihan bought a new Gucci shades and it's way too cool. I wanna grow up and be a big man, who enjoys luxury. At the same time, I wanna be on the other side of the world, experiencing poverty. Having experience that, will I treasure things more. I miss her la, dey.

Fergie's Finally is rocking me. I'm a music geek now.

Delta Goodrem's Believe Again is as good. :D

I'm not in the mood to study. I've so many things to do, yet so little time. We're buying bags probably this weekend or something. Clique bags!

Chemistry lessons cancelled. That's the best part of the day. School was fine, other than me checking my phone regularly for her message. Sick, I saw Baby Kerwin today at AMK Hub with Uncle Joshsphere.

I find Cute is What We Aim For's Risque cute. Haha, I got birds ears.. And a devil on my shoulder.. And what's a crush.. What's a crush to do.. Fine, I'm getting so random these days. Ok, she screwed her Chemistry SPA and she says that she's not in the mood to meet out for dinner.. I shall skip dinner and study then.

Happy Mother's Day. But Mom is away. I'll be celebrating with Mom and Aunt Jessie next Sunday. Anyhow, check out this new blogskin. It's so cool right? Check out Zu's too. We have the same background, just different colour. But I think my blog is simpler and nicer that hers.

Mom, although you're away to celebrate Mother's Day with Nainai, but I know you know got my message. Thank you for nuturing me, thank you for buying me a new Raoul top on Mother's Day. It's Mother's Day and as a filial son, I got something in return! I'm so hungry and lonely now. I have Sherilyn, Maxy, and Macy with me. Dad's out for company function and here I am, rotting and chunking Mars. Holy, I've yet to study for my Biology! My motivation towards tomorrow is meeting Christy. Hahaha, she's a nice girl I swear. Davier and Malcom may be joining along too. Am I a JC student? Sometimes, I do ask myself too..

Oh fuck McDonalds. It was 2minutes away from 11, yet we couldn't get our McGriddles meal. Hell, I'm not happy. But good thing that I met Zu for breakfast still. From high class McDonalds breakfast, downgraded to our own homemade breakfast. Cooked some eggs and some toast, with Marigold peel fresh orange juice. Well, let's not be complacent. Sent her home after 2 hours of eating and TV because she needs to do her work, and so do I.

You tear my heart open and I keep bleeding. Still, I wish you're the one to mend this wound, and salvage it. Girl, I'm falling too deep for you.. So much so that I'm afraid that I'll regret. I love you..

We sorted things out. I was glad that we had the same feeling for each other. I wish Davier can forget her asap because I don't want to ruin our brotherhood also. I know he wishes the best for her too.

Ok it's true I've the same feelings for you and it's obvious that both of us knew it. But we have the same fear I guess so. Fear that things may end up like you and Davier. From the best of friends, to boy girl friend, to almost complete strangers now. But just to tell you that your feelings are not one-sided. We shall see how we work things out? Really afraid of the final outcome. But yes, I do love you and I know you can sense it.

The above was the exact text I sent to her. I'm not afraid of posting it up, because right now I know, this feelings is absolutely true. I don't know when I started to fell for her, I really don't. But definitely not when the both of them are still together.

Whoosh, I've finished my homework and I'm kinda proud of myself.

*taps on my own shoulder.

Went for drinking session with the rest of the masssss group on Wednesday night. NewAsiaBar as usual, after that was minds cafe for awhile, then walked around Clarke Quay. Zu cried and told me some things that she find it hard to decide. I was lost, I'm afraid my advice was bias. So I got Nikki and Makoto to help me. So after listening to all our advices, she sorted things out with Davier. I don't know what she said either. But she went home without a word. Guess she felt miserable after the talk.

Ok back to the point. After Clarke Quay we walk a hell long distance to East Coast for breakfast. Cycled, bladed etc.. Fast forward. Then I met Wanying to pass her the homework and had my 2nd breakfast with Dad and Mom. I'm missing out so much at home.. Guilty.