You're getting me worried, hell worried.

I know it's not easy for you to face it alone. Especially when everyone is leaving you, to start afresh again. Whenever you feel like giving up, look back to this entry. You know you always have us. And I hope you understand my point, why I insist on you retaining.

27 point is just one point lesser from the retaking criteria, I know the feeling suck. Because you're just so near to retaking and making yourself eligible for retaining. You wish you've gotten 28, or even 35, 40 points. Still, we will advise you to repeat and brush up on your J1 work. You know yourself better than everyone else. Given the time and hardwork, you will be able to do way better if not for you playing and wasting time this year.

Take this as a stepping stone, something you learn from, and not cry from. What happened has already happened. Like you said, your teachers did everything to help you. Trust me, repeating will be better for you. Even if you were to get 47 points today, it may not lead you to good A level results, it may not. Take this one extra year to really learn and brush up on every single thing you don't understand. 3 year route in JC, there's no shame, no one gonna laugh at you. If anyone were to, prove him/her that you're capable of getting better results and you didn't regret retaining.

I know you keep telling yourself that if you promote, you'll work hard. Given your character, think again. You know you'll still play and think that since I can scrape through J1, I can do it for As also. As is way harder than promotional examination. You know the fact and you ain't gonna lie to yourself.

Stop saying that you disappointed your family, us and your friends. No one wish to see this happen. Work hard and no one will blame you. We all know that you're smart just that you're lazy and too last minute. Now that you've learnt your lesson, nothing's too late. You're still going to enter University one day, who cares about how long you take? It'll be worse if you get promoted and fail your A levels next year. Understand me, really.

Polytechnic must be in your mind now. Think what's best for yourself. I can't decide for you, everything's yours. Whether you take it or not. Like what Silas say, there's always the silver lining beyond the dark clouds. Think positive. Very very positive. You're going to outshine others and be the next top scholar of SR. We have faith in you, you'll see you through.

As for him, I guess you don't have to think so much either. Your friends will walk you through this journey, so will Him. God bless her.

Engulfing truth owner will be having his A level examinations soon. And this blog will be on hiatus till 20th November 2008. Please do not disturb him from this moment, till 20th November, while he's doing his intensive revision. He will not be entertaining any phone calls, messages, dinner and supper etc. He'll stay at home 24-7 unless he needs to go back to AJ for consultations. OMNIA will be put aside for a month. Yes, I know I'm very self-disciplined. I cannot get anything wrong this time.

I hereby which everyone all the best for their A levels.

And girl, sorry but I won't be here for you for a month. You can still look for me at my house if there's really a need for you to talk to. But I think, there's someone out there, who's better in confiding you. :)

Don't think so much cos everything's just gonna be fine. God will bless. No matter what, you have us, I swear. There are many people out there caring for you, so don't give up on yourself. Pick yourself up from where you fell. Anyway, everything's gonna be fine, so why worry so much? Just enjoy and wait till the final verdict is out. If so happens that you have to retake your paper, study real hard and make it through. Worthy, isn't it?

Can you at least, give me a reply?

Shihan and Joey complains that my blog is becoming more and more Xiaxue with lots of random and irrelevant stuffs. Alright, I'll make my blog look more like Bryan Lee Wei Han. And some random sms between Jinghong and myself.

Jinghong: I know super random, but your name got Evan inside?!
Bryan: Middle name, but I seldom use it.
Jinghong: For what?
Bryan: Say there are lots of Bryan Lee, there will be much lesser Bryan Evan Lee. Like..
Jinghong: Oh oh, I think I know already.
Jinghong: When your A level over?
Bryan: Not so soon. Why?
Jinghong: So long never slack with you all. Got study?
Bryan: Studied like a bookworm. :-D :-D :-D
Jinghong: Good good, after your As, we jio them out to drink k?
Bryan: Yup sure.

I think the middle name thing is funny. No one calls me Bryan Evan other than my Dad, who does that when he misses me too much. There he comes in, saying "Evan~". Alright guess he wants me to go down for a cool talking session. Bye!

So yes, I'm chatting with that silly girl who was practically typing only ":(s" on my msn. I got so worried and she insisted that she's fine and that I can't call her cos she's on the phone and I shouldn't disturb her by going to her place. But I guess she's feeling much better but she still don't know how to react to certain situations. Just go with your heart and everything will turn out fine. Who cares about what others say? And conquer your phobia. It's been more than a year I think it's time you really put it down and start afresh. Not everyone's a baddy and there's a million better guys out there for you to fish. And some may be right in front of you. (Hello, I'm not talking about myself. I've totally given up a month ago. I'll start hunting for a real cool girlfriend and she'll be way better than you girls.)

So yes, Priscilla, devil say she's 100% alright and we don't have to worry for her cos she wants to solve thing herself this time. Let's wish that someone can control our little devil and that we can be free from her complains. It's time for YOU COMPLAIN. Sounds familiar huh, Zach? Oh ya, Zach says, Zu's not just a devil but a super devil. Give it a try, I think nothing will go wrong this time. My blog gonna become private real soon, probably after my As. So yes, screenshot every single little post of mine then. That's what Lek suggests for my hardcore engulfingtruth fans. :D

Eh asshole, now I realise everyone's reading your blog. I shall secretly change your blog url and log in password. And you won't be able to access to it anymore. I'm sucha sweet sister, I won't do that. Bribe me with my FAV. Alright Bryan must sleep now cos' Zu says so. :( I'm on a killing spree and I just fucking got myself killed. I hate to think. Phobia matters alot to me..

I hope you don't put her in an awkward situation.

You know who you are, I shan't elaborate more. Just give her time, maybe things will turn out fine.

I'm not going through any drastic emotional changes, just that this song keeps repeating in my mind. It keeps ringing, I don't know why. Just like how One Thing keeps ringing in my mind.

I realised I don't like losing. Phrase it another way. I have big ambitions, I hate losing. Say, I can't accept the fact, if I were to lose. Everyone loves winning, hates losing, I know, you know it too. Just that, I realise, I can't accept myself losing.

Since young, I get everything I want, be it I worked hard for it, or that Mom and Dad gives them to me. So much that the word "losing" is removed from Bryan's own dictionary. Everything I do, I think about winning. Processes are supposed to matter more than outcome, but it turns out the other way round for me. I want to even win my own friends. I always say Zu and Pris are stubborn, unreasonable because they always want to win. But I myself, is the same kind.

Yes, another living sample of them. I think I'm far worse than them .

When guys fell in love for a particular girl..

#01. You want to see her everyday. *Everyone
#02. You wish to receive her sms, msn, call everyday. Worse still, email.
#03. You check her friends' blogs. *Philander sicko
#04. You pay special attention when she messages or answers a call.
#05. You'll find whatever reasons to give her a call/sms. *Brandon
#06. You want to be the first to be there for her. *Brandon, Leslie
#07. You go into her friendster account everyday if both of you have friendster. *Leslie
#08. You pay close attention to her changing of personal message.
#09. You ask her why when she's down.
#10. Everything she talk in the blog, you think she's talking about you. *Malcom
#11. You get jealous when she says she's going out with someone you don't know.
#12. You silently lie on her shoulder when you're on your way home on bus. *Marcus
#13. You smell her hair. *Leslie
#14. You nudge her more often. *Lek
#15. You feel like peeping into her messages. *Lek
#16. You wish she's yours. (LOL) *Pris
#17. You want her attention. *Dav
#18. You protect her, physically, mentally, emotionally. You don't want anyone to hurt her.
#19. You hate to see her down. You rather take over her position.
#20. You keep looking around when you're out on streets, hoping that you'll see her there.
#21. You help her carry her shopping bags. *Zach, Bry, Max
#22. You treat her occasionally to not make it so obvious. *Mab
#23. You ask her out together with some other people who will help you to pull strings.
#24. You buy her what she like. Eg icecreams chocolates flowers
#25. You worry when she lays her head down. *Zach
#26. You pat her to sleep when you're out to stay over.
#27. You look silently at her when she's sleeping. *Bryan, Leslie, Zach
#28. You dream of her. *Zach
#29. You think what will happen when the both of you are together.
#30. You smile to yourself when she sends you some silly messages.
#31. You are the first to worry when she's sick. *Almost everyone
#32. You send her home to get her attention.
#33. You want her attention dearly. *Leslie
#34. You keep asking if she like anyone. *Leslie the irritant
#35. You ask about people who are possible of being together with her.
#36. You do the ugliest and silliest thing just to cheer her up. *Davier
#37. You touch her gently, pat her head, etc when she's sleeping. *Max
#38. You wish you have her, the whole day, to yourself, just yourself.
#39. You buy her random stuffs like earrings etc. *Lek
#40. You bring extra jacket for her. *BRYAN!
#41. Your blog always talk about her.
#42. You find a chance to hold her hand. *Leslie
#43. You allow her to do anything to you, something that others can't do to you. *Shihan
#44. You come up with your own lingo with her. *Max
#45. You gentle touch her hand. LOL *ZACHERY!

See how many you hit. And for those with asterisks, those are contributions from the various people. For girls, I'm not too sure, but it should roughly be the case. I'll ask my girl friends for some points. And Lek wants to clarify that he didn't fell for Zu. He bought earrings to cheer her up as a friend. For those without asterisks, they are my points! Cos I've experienced the feeling of falling for someone. :)

Christy says: Bryan loves disturbing. What a leeeeech.

I didn't attend school today. Did intensive revision with VJ nerd, ACJ gay and NYJ bitch at TCC, Clarke Quay.

Yup Bryan intend to skip school tomorrow. Manage to psycho ValG, Pris and Lek. Cool.

Zu: I got U for almost everything except for Maths C, Chem S, and Chinese C.
Bry: Hmm, got back all papers?
Zu: Ya.
Bry: Hey hey, chill girl. Are you crying? I'm too far to lend you my shoulder. Or you get early leave, I leave school now to find you?
Zu: It's ok.
Bry: If you want to cry, just let it out.
Zu: I want to cry, but I can't. If I cry, I think I'll make others cry even worse.
Bry: Who's crying?
Zu: Ridley, Qianbi and Jingyi. Like you will know.
Bry: Just cry it out.
Zu: I don't want to make situation worse, you understand? And I'm numbed, my eyes are dry maybe because I didn't sleep. I'm trying hard to hold it back. Please Bry, don't make me tear..
Bry: Alright alright, so whatcha doing?
Zu: Sitting at the squash court, dazing. I don't want to retain..
Bry: I know you don't want to, there's moderation. Anyway, you have like near 30 points already right?
Zu: 26 only. I don't want to leave my classmates.
Bry: Plus moderation, some of your nonsense subject will jump a grade, don't worry. Bryan's here to save you!
Zu: Guess it's too late. You know, Ridley told me, he don't want to me to retain. And suddenly I start thinking, if only I word hard earlier, I won't face this situation today whereby I have to leave this class.. Then Qianbi also. She cried, and I feel like crying also cos we said we will stay strong and laugh it through the whole hour..
Bry: Nobody wants you to retain. It's not the final yet, you will promote. Trust Bryan.
Zu: Bry, leave me alone first. Sorry.

I don't understand why you can't cry in class, why you want to put on a strong front and act like you're fine, when you're not. You don't want to make situation worse, I understand. But you know as well, that we don't want to see you hiding and making yourself more miserable. Life has to go on like what your sis say, but c'mon, you're not gonna retain for goodness sake. Sure there's someone worse off.

So yup, Zach and I went down to meet her. So Shihan, Joey, Hanpeng and all the big brothers who are concerned about her, she's alright. At least she cried. This is probably the fourth time I see her cry so badly. I guess this class really left deep imprints in her heart despite the short duration spent together. We couldn't cheer her up for the second time and she went home still, sobbing with red eyes. She says she just wants time alone, so guess, we just let her be. I'll check on her, so you guys just stay cool and wait for my sms.

Girl, if there's no choice, you'll just have to face with it. But we choose to believe that you'll promote cos' at least you improved greatly as compared to your midyear. Retain, like what you said, take it as you're the most experienced. And her friends, if you're reading my blog, I hope you can help to cheer her up. She always says she's ok, but she's not. She loves putting on a strong front and act like nothing big happened. Make her smile at least, before the final verdict is announced. Thank you.

And even so, your class will always remember you as part of them.. I think it's time you get a good rest. You haven't sleep for 30 over hours and maybe that's why you are super emotional. Everything will turn out fine eventually, like what Zach say. Have faith, we'll pray for you.

I have some irritating ulcers. Guess I gotten them from sharing drinks with Philander. Darn.

Twenty things girls like about their boyfriends.

1. Hot body. *All 6 wish for this
2. Good Looking. *Priscilla (Zu and Mab smiles and say, average can already la, er slightly above average)
3. Good Character. *All 6 of them
4. Music Talents. *All except Mab
5. Rich. *PRISCILLA THE MATERIALIST.
6. Romantic. *ValG, Zu, Pris, Christy
7. Huggable. *Zu, Pris, Christy
8. Kissable. *Pris, Christy, Oli
9. Protective but not to over. *Zu, Pris, Christy
10. Nightlife. *All except ValG, no life girl.
11. No complains. *Pris, Christy
12. Must send them home no matter what. *Zu, Christy, Oli, Pris
13. Occasional surprises. *All 6 girls
14. Buy them flowers. *Pris, Christy
15. Carry their bags. *Christy, Pris
16. Winning their enemy's bf is a must. *Pris, Zu
17. Fillial. *Zu, Pris
18. Gentle to them, yet cool to others. *Zu
19. Nice hair to touch. *Zu, Christy
20. Cool nipples to pinch. *Zu, Pris, Mab, Christy

Survey doned for all 6 girls; Priscilla, Valerie, Zu, Christy, Olivia and Mabel.

Pris ticks 19 of them, and that one and only one is really not so important. Seems quite important to Christy and Zu though. They went high when I asked them this after voting. They screamed, "IT'S A MUST" for smooth hair. Darryl, go ahead and damage your hair, since Pris can't be bothered.

Christy ticked 15 of the above. Which surprised me because I thought her expectations would be as high as Pris. Haha, not too bad, I didn't know he want cool nipples to pinch. I guess she got influenced by Zu and Pris. And I thought she'll want her boyfriend to win her enemy's.

Zu ticked 14.5 because her boyfriend needs to be higher than average but not to the extend that it reaches good looking. Haha, she wants a booby man I guess. What's with the nice hair, cool nipples. The rest are expected but one thing for sure that we don't know, is that she wants filial boyfriend. Not too bad, your expectation is not as high as Pris and Christy. And Zu adds in that her boyfriend must have dimples. Haha, funny.

Olivia ticked 6. Haha, so basically you can close your eyes and grab any man on street and throw him to Olivia. He'll most likely hit half her expectations. I always thought Oli will want a no complain boyfriend but no?! I still don't quite believe it. But funny thing, she wants a kissable boyfriend. Alright, get you a sausage lip man on the street sometime after my As.

Mabel ticked 5.5. Her 0.5 comes from the same reason as Zu. But she don't need her boyfriend to be musically inclined. Haha, I thought he want guitar/drum rock star who can click better with her. And hahaha,wth she wants cool nipples too. But her expectation is expected because she's so so so happy-go-lucky with your "FUCK YOU" all the time. I'll prank call you again!

Valerie, stupid mugger with low expectations. For her, I can really grab any man on street and throw it to her. What surprises me is that she wants a boyfriend with hot bod who can sun tan with her and the girls. That's her number one criteria. Why the hell a VJ girls wants a hot bod boyfriend? Study Bio on him. Alright, ValG says anything is ok, so long as it's love. LOVE IS BLIND, so dramatic. Alright.

These girls never fail to surprise me. Guys survey will be out soon. I spend 2.5 hours surveying them while they were chilling out in the living room. They really really surprised me especially points 7, 8 and 20.

Finally that irritating bug is gone. She's on a secret mission and I'm not allowed to say. Like anyone will read my blog, hellllo?! Lek gonna kill me when he sees his face being uploaded here. Not my fault, it's that irritating bug's. Haha, bad hair day. Alright, I can finally concentrate and mug. Hi chao mugger~

HELLLLLLLLLO, ZU'S RIGHT HERE AT BRYAN'S HOUSE. Ok I purposely come over to disturb cos' I don't want you to study. Evil right? I'm on the verge of retaining so I hope Bryan and flunk his As and repeat his J2 while I'm repeating my J1. No la, I have extra time today so I just come over to disturb. Hahaha, check out this ugly below.

Hi my name is Lek. I had a bad hair day. Haha!

It's Sunday! I've got nothing to do at home. I'll be mugging for at least 13hours.

Zu will say: "Chao mugger".

I'm scared, very very scared. But I dare not post in my blog. I can only post in yours and Pris's. I don't want people to worry. I keep saying how positive I am, but I'm so afraid. If everyone gets promoted, except me, I'll be all alone. Not that I want everyone to retain with me, but I really wish to get promoted. I have to act like nothing bad's gonna happen. Cos' if I'm upset, others will too. Those fakes smiles and white lies do good to others, but not to me.

Help me..

:( I don't know if I'm alright now. But good thing that your mom's back. Let me go over and play Wii and distress myself for 2 days. Then I'm dead. Ah FUCK.

- Zu :(

Bryan: Time to wake up!
Mab: Mmm?
Bryan: Wake up, wake up. *In stupid voice
Mab: Who the fuck are you?
(FYI, I used my mom's number to call her.)
Bryan: Your mother.
Mab: Fuck you.
Bryan: Jingyan, don't you dare scold me.
Mab: Bitch, my mom have sweet voice. Not your fucking irritating voice.
Mab: Don't waste ma time. Who the fuck are you and what you want..
(Still dragging her voice)
Bryan: Wake up and go to the toilet. Time to pee.
Mab: Fuck off please.
Bryan: Guess who?
Mab: Ma mom, Ma mom, happy?
Bryan: Not really.
Mab: I guess I know who. Fuck you, Bry.
Bryan: How you guess it's me.
Mab: I FUCKING HAVE YOUR MOM'S NUMBER.
Bryan: Holy. Now then you know?!
Mab: Too lazy to check out the screen.
Bryan: Oh, so are you awake?
Mab: Hell no. I'm going back to sleep. Irritate someone else. This prank call isn't funny.
Bryan: I think it is.
Mab: Fuck off and die.

*Mabel hangs up the phone.
*Bryan calls her again.

Mab: Fuck off and die, bro.
Mab: I hate you. WHY MUST YOU PRANK CALL ME AT THE MOST TIRING NIGHT OF MINE.
Bryan: Draw lots? And I picked you?
Mab: Are you that bored, bitch?
Bryan: Yup.
Mab: Disturb Yuqi or Diya. I bet their still awake.
Mab: Probably still out for night life.
Bryan: I want to disturb sleepyheads.
Mab: Call Pris then, she must be dead like a pig.
Bryan: She won't even answer I guess.
Mab: I'm really tired. Entertain you some other nights. Erm, disturb ValG then. She'll be sweet and innocent, with no vulgarities, and some whatever. I'm tired, nights fucker. Don't call me again.

And again,
*Mabel hangs up the phone.
*Bryan calls her again.

Mab: I'm switching off my phone. Entertained you enough. Nights, or say, morning. Bye.

For the third time,
*Mabel hangs up the phone.
*Bryan calls her again.
*The line couldn't get through, she switched off her phone.

Mom's back and Dad's smiling like a goon. I think I can try asking Dad for that Elton John piano since he's in such high spirit. Shall skip my sleep tonight because I doubt I can get out of bed for church if I sleep tonight. Time to prank call and disturb.. Mab. I'll load the funny conversation if there's any. Be prepared for a full-of-profanities post.

Alright, our emo girl is off to East Coast again but this time she asked me not to search for her. Guess you just need some time alone. For once, I'll leave you alone. Hope you're able to sort things out. So long as you did your best, there's nothing to regret. Smile, and go home soon my girl.

Haha, that pig's asleep. Uh huh, you fatty Bryan, your packs are going off-form. Study la, stop onlining can. I WAN'T GIVEN A CHANCE TO CHOOSE THE FLAVOURS IF YOU REALISE. You guys just chose them and say 'time to go'! And you are freaking blaming it on me?! *Middle finger to you too. Humph.

And I'm not going school tomorrow. Wheeee~ Darryl's bringing me out for breakfast. Bad boyfriend, wants me to become chubbier. Study hard and let's go UK together! And hor, don't bully my boyfriend larhssssssss. Stop pushing him into the pool, you scare him badly. :(

*POUTS and gives jiao bin.

Shit, I shouldn't be so vulgar. Christy say, you suck for insulting her. Oli say, you suck more for insulting them. I say, you sucker. It's time you sleep now. Right, you are allowed to join my and my dear for breakfast tomorrow. Call me if you manage to wake up before 10am. I hate you like how my bitch does.

Cheer up bitch. Cos' I know you're sad that I'm prettier than you. You're not not not the prettiest. Prisicilla's always the best. That's what my Darryl says. Alright, TIME TO SLEEP NOW, CLOSE YOUR EYES~ *Bleh.

From:
The creator of "please please please my shit is coming out".Yes, it's none other than, pretty Priscilla Oh, HOHOHO. :D

Eh, *points middle finger* don't say till like I'm a tikobu can?! What's with "say Ross is here"? I think you'll jump out upon hearing that also. Cos' you wanna see how handsome is my Beckham-look-alike friend. :D Eh Bry, THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING. I know I always have you guys.

Don't be too happy cos' Pris, Darryl, Lek, Mab, Christy, Dav, Mak, Zach, all have the same "THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING" entry from me. Alright, I thank you sincerely la. And thank you for washing my plates.

Come up with our ideal boyfriend survey. Quick!

I (L) YOU. Ya, you wait long long la. Ok, Bryan Lee Wei Han, you owe me 2 Haagen Dazs fondues. Cos'.. er.. the reason I'll tell you soon. Meanwhile, you can crack your brains and keep thinking. Go sleep la, stop blogging you ass. I (BOX) you. :D *Wink wink.

- From your prettiest friend, Zu. :D

Ways to wake the ValG, Mab, Pris, Christy, Oli and Zu up.

1. Come up with irritating phrases and repeat them over and over again. They'll feel ultra irritated and thus getting out of their bed.
2. Scream straight into their ears. But boys shouldn't do that.
3. Say you have the nicest food on Earth.
4. Tell them molester Jason Phua is coming.
5. Shout, "it's time for prata".
6. Tell them that Marcus's mom is here.
7. Give them nice slaps and cold ice water on their faces. But again, boys can't slap girls.
8. Play super ah beng/lian irritating raps.
9. Kick their ass. For this, we can. :D
10. Pull their hair. FYI, we can only pull Christy's and Oli's. The rest will still ignore us because they are so used to it.
11. Draw on them. It works all the time surprisingly though it does no harm.
12. Say McDonalds delivery is here. With their favourite apple pies and marigold milk.
13. Shout, "World War 3" is here.
14. Say their boyfriends are here and they will get up immediately to save themselves from letting their boyfriends see their unglam-ness.
15. Label them ugly, disgusting, fat. Works often, but it will come along with complimentary "FUCK YOU" from Mab.
16. Say Ross is here, and Zu will most probably believe when she's still semi-conscious and jump out of bed.
17. Pillow fight with them, till they wake up.
18. Cover them up with lots and lots of blanket. Heat is the best way to wake them up sometimes.
19. Lick their faces. Leslie's favourite, sick.
20. Last resort (We seldom do that, ya like real), TAUPOK them.

If the above 20 doesn't wake them up, tell you what. They are officially pronounced dead.

Dinner was a super low budget one. Haha but nice to someone cos it saved her lots of money. We planned to have Swensens again but someone complained about being broke and that she's going out the whole weekend bla bla.. So final decision, (we decided to be kind to get some blessings) buy some ingredients and cook our own dinner. Zu will cook cos she insisted on not dining out and yup, SHE WANTS TO COOK for once.

So Zach, Pris, Darryl, myself and Zu went to NTUC Fairprice to shop. We got tomato, spaghetti, sauces, ham, mozzarella cheese, minced meat, mushrooms, crabmeats, yoghurts, cornflour, b&j icecream, tidbits, etc. NTUC spending was around 70+$. We had lots of fun playing with the trolley. Bought cheesecake (50$) and off and we went over to Lek's house to mess everything up.

Zu can't cook. Hahaha, but all along she was bragging how good she can cook. She boiled the spaghetti then she thought of ways to cook the sauce cos we forbid her from buying the already-made sauces. So she smashed tomatoes, added cornflour with her instinct, and just add anything she like inside. It was quite alright together with Zach's help. Didn't know Zach can cook. But I think the sequences were quite screwed. Imagine she cooked the sauce then she cook the crabmeats. Heat the sauce again, add crabmeats bla bla. A simple dinner took them like 2 hours to prepare. But meanwhile, I was playing Mak's DS. Some stupid cooking mama game.

Zach, Yongrui, Kunsheng, Sikai, Mak, Zu, Pris, Lek, Mabel, Darryl, Davier, myself.

Alright, today was rather crowded. Mak came to join us cos she coincidentally (as claimed by Mak and Dav), met in their school campus. So both of them came along. Then Sikai, Kunsheng and Yongrui came along after their dinner at 85 after messaging Zu. ValG and Mal couldn't join us because they are chao muggers (Zu's lingo).

Dinner was finally ready at 7.35pm. Waited for Lek's dad and mom to come home and dinner started. So we applied nonsense Economics concepts and Pris mumbled about her history contents. Zu was so afraid cos she cooked for 7 but there were 12 mouths to feed. But thank God she cooked super huge portion per person and we could each sacrifice a little. The spaghetti wasn't that bad la, but you should really thank Zach for saving up your mess and making it delicious. Yes, I said delicious. I know you're smiling widely right now. Spastic.

Went up to play with his mom's IGallop which made Darryl ultra high. Erm, Pris don't like horny boys. Haha. And yes, the long awaited B&J icecream. But Pris was complaining the flavours we chose. Excuse me, you were there when we're choosing the flavours. I think strawberry cheesecake flavour is nice, peach was nice also. Then was Starbucks cheeeeeeesecake! But worse thing is that Darryl and I had to wash plates for Zu cos she was whining badly.

And we were talking about the times we made milkshakes, which obviously failed. Then the times when Lek still had his wooden swing and we snatch over it, sat there and emo, play with Dino, etc etc. Sometimes, these playful moments make you think that it's worth living, just for the sake of your best friends.

Slacked around and both Darryl and I sent the 4 girls home. Sent Mab off, then Zu, Mak and Pris. Long way though we're all in Bedok. Haha, now Darryl is afraid of walking by the poolside due to the bad experience on moon tanning night. And yes, here I am now. Hmm, time to study. Hurray, Mom's coming back tomorrow. Hope she bought my Gucci shoes. Yes, and vodkas, tequilas!

And girl, you need to try your best to forget what has happened. Maybe somethings are not meant to be. Think both ways. You said maybe you'll be happier if you're still together. But maybe, you won't too. There are better guys out there for sure, just the matter of when you meet him. Nvm, you always have me if no one wants you. :) I'm glad we're playing as normal now. Love can be transformed from one form to another, just like energy. Hey hey, Physics student!

C'mon girl, smile. Time will heal, trust me. I don't want to see you cry, really. Everytime you're down, you affect all of us. Maybe the memories are hard to forget but sometimes, it's best you try to let go. Since you got yourself an answer, try to go accord to it. You always have me, always..

Met Silvia and Davier for lunch this afternoon at Tampines's Swensens. Not too bad. And we realise how much we drifted apart. We used to be best churchmates. But now, I'm closer with Zach, Oli, Christy, Phil, Max, Fel etc. It's because of our personal responsibilities and different role plays now, but that's no excuse. This talking session was great. It brought back nice and playful memories of ours.

The times we disturb pastor after service, the times we go down specially to sweep the church.. The list goes on and on..

Zu's top 10 criteria for her future boyfriend.
01. At least 175cm. (3cm discount already)
02. Heavier than her. (Can't disclose her weigh cos she'll strangle me to death)
03. Be bullied by her.
04. Treats her like princess.
05. But cannot be always giving in to her.
07. Dote on her and give her surprises.
08. Give her big fat hugs. (Lol like Peng's hug)
09. Bring her jacket when going out for movie.
10. Let her abuse. (Sick)
11. Feed her with lots of food.
12. Must be a coffee house and icecream lover.
13. Must be filial.
14. Hopefully hot and handsome.
15. But treating her best is the most impt thing.
16. Must be an animal lover. (Must love her babies)
17. LOL must be a Singtel user cos she have free sms.
18. Stays near her, if not he must be willing to send her home.
19. Drives in the future. (She adds "drive now also can".)
20. Music talents is a bonus. (BRYAN still the best)

Crap. Haha, I haven't let go that easily. Like what those olden Chinese series say, love is not about being with that person, but to see him/her happy. I'm not that great but give me time. Kk, I'll still keep my promise in finding you your ideal boyfriend.

Anyway, reached home at 10 plus after dinner with Pris and Darryl. Zu's family dinner on every Tuesday so we couldn't get her along. And girl, please go for a check up. At least you know what's wrong with yourself. No, no way you're dying. We won't let our irritating sister die that early. We haven't torture you enough.

Yes Zu, we all saw your sad faces in our blog. But we're great loves right? To be able to cheer you up in such a short time period. Don't cry la, for everything, you have us with you. Even if the world ends tomorrow, we vow to be there for you. We, not just I. Zach, Val, Marc, Fwed, Sikai, Yongrui, Jo, Hanpeng, Shihan, Christy, Dav, Mal, Lek, Mak, Pris, Darryl, Ziqin, Leren etc. All of Us.

Time to study, bye!

Bryan.. :(

Alright, Natchew just left my house. Continued to learn that song, and taught Nat how to play on the piano. He's a piano-retard. And, the red Elton John piano is such a love. I saw the picture today, and I was like.. Dad, can you buy me one? He's answer is definitely no. Smarties for me. But seriously, that piano's hot.

Dinner was a "tokyo drift" (Lek and Zu's lingo) and super fast one because Chanel has to reach airport by 2225 to fetch her granny. Let's talk about it since I still have time. So met Darryl at our busstop and walk over to Zu's to fetch her and took bus 65 down to Tampines. And it reminds us of the uber fun singing bus trip the last time with Pris. "Please please please my shit is coming out".

Then waited for Lek etc to reach. Ordered lots of food, icecream started piling up. And Chanel drank 8 glasses of plain water. Hahaha, she's saving up for Kunsheng is it?! Well, with slapstick humours from Oli, and crude jokes from Christy, plus rubbish chute nonsense from Lek. Sad thing is that Zach couldn't come along. Zu and Kunsheng complained about being "combed" by our churchies. (Comb is her lingo)

Zu: Walao, you see, you all like comb us sia.
All of us: (Puzzled) Huh?!
Zu: All your church one, except three of us leh.
Kunsheng: Nvm, anything, we still win one la.
Lek: My church is cooler.
Bry: (Clears throat) Again?
Lek: COOOOOLER.
Bry: Mine's the coolest.
Christy: Eh, Kunsheng don't scratch your armpit.
Zu: *LOL super loudly*
Oli: True, why all from our church?
Lek: What all, I'm NOT ok.
Darryl: We don't want you la. Fuck.

Hahaha, this is random but I guess the family beside us got shocked by our conversation. *Fast forward* Sent Zu home with Lek and Darryl. Then slacked at the playground near Lek's place before we moved home. Yes, and I land here, in front of the laptop. It's 12.03am now. Bye!

Will be going out for dinner at Swensens Tampines with Lek, Chanel, Christy, Oli, D2, Dav, Mak, Kunsheng and Zu. Kunsheng's treating us, for whatever reason. And someone's hell happy because she gets to eat free baked rice and have free GIANT Earthquake. She knows that fats are rushing towards her, but still she don't care.

On the other hand, (grinning evily) someone else is upset because she has family wedding dinner and that she thinks that shark's fin is way lousier than Swensens. Well well, it's the matter of who you're having dinner with! Zu will be more than happy to exchange her situation with yours. Alright, time to move off now! 8pm, free food.

Mom called back to inform that she bought tix back to Singapore on Friday evening. Hurrrray, she's finally back and I can finally have the taste of homemade yummy desserts. Life without Mom suck yo (new talking lingo from Les, he kind of influenced all of us). Oh and I've gotten my stuffs. OMNIA fell today, but ma baby (MAFAN'S lingo) is still alive and kicking.

Please please please ma shit is coming out. (Combination of Pris and MAFAN'S lingo)

Ok, Leslie, see I have ways to put all different people's lingo together. :D

Hear my sigh of relief? I'm glad we're able to sort things out in a nice situation, with Lek and Zach as our peacemakers. We are best friends, and that's forever. And sometimes I do wonder, why do people fell for you.

You're noisy, crude, rough. Unlike ideal sweet, soft-spoken and gentle girls. Surprisingly, your negative uniqueness caught us. Oh well, thank God that everything's over. We can finally stop avoiding each other and yes, play as per normal. I know it'll be weird for a start, but time will heal, especially when we're best of friends.

True enough, best friends never become good couples. Ok we shall see when you get a boyfriend alright. Keep dreaming of your ideal man. So long as you're happy, everything's fine.

Moon tanning was nice, after trashing everything out. We pushed Darryl into the pool and the security yelled at us for doing so. And Pris for the first time, scream back like crazy to protect her boyfriend from being scolded. Darryl, Pris is no longer the sweet bitch you like. Time to find a new girlfriend while keeping her on hold.

Back to moon tanning session, Pris's dad came over to the pool side to chill with us and we're again talking about what happened to Darryl. He was going.. "Poor boy, didn't my precious help you?" And Darryl replied, "Yes, but only after everything. She was part of them, and she felt guilty after that." Hahaha, Pris was laughing like mad. So did we.

Weihao, Malcom, Davier, Leslie, Marcus and Brandon came along. So it was rather fun. Moon tanning is always great yo? We open 2 bottles of Choya and mixed them with sodas, then was a little bit of vodka. Pris's dad forbid us from drinking tequila because he's afraid we'll get heavy hangover tomorrow (later) and affect our revision. Went back to her house to chill out and as usual, stairs competition. Pris is still the slowest, how weird?

Ordered Pizzahut and had them at the balcony. We're planning to have a BBQ at her place soon to mess up her whole house. Kelvin and Diya came over for Pizza because they were nearby. Both girls fell asleep after eating (super pigs) and we were making helluva noise to wake them up. To no avail, yo? But I had to come up with 1001 ways to wake Zu up because I have to send her home if not Meg will start screaming like crazy.

Sent Zu home at 3.20am and we manage to catch up what we missed for week plus. Sorry for making you so so so emotional. :(

Alright, she text me to moon tan at Pris's house later. And she wants to trash things out. It's a good thing also. At leaset it'll make us feel better, and behave like how we used to. My feelings made everyone around us miserable. Pris, Lek, Zach, ValG, Darryl, Davier, Mab, Christy, Olivia, Sikai, Yongrui, Weihao and the others are stuck as to what to do with us. And I think he's better for you. Though I don't know who he is, one thing for sure is that his blog is always talking about you, but you don't know.
This talking session, hopefully, can turn things out well. I know the final outcome is a no, but at least, we can talk it face to face, than to get this done through emails, sms or whatever. Sorry, for everything caused. I know you'll for sure read this after our moon tanning session. Stop being so innocent. I can't imagine a rough and noisy girl like you is so oblivious to what's happening around.
Beforehand, I'll like to say, thank God that we're back as best friends. I'll be there for you forever, no matter what. Even if it takes me my life to save you, I will. This message goes out to everyone who's there for us. And Davier, we both lost this time. I always thought I will get her.
Alright, have to move off to get my new NIKE jacket and probably a NIKE footwear.

I read your blog, I know what you're hinting at. I'll do anything that can make you happy. Friends will never become couples, I know what you fear. Speaking of which, worshipping today was naggy for me because I had much to tell God. I wish He can make you smile, and help me to save this situtation.

Going out to get a new jacket and shoes later, with Dad and Uncle Ian.

I realise that there are certainly many things that I can't leave behind. Oh well, I have to learn. I know it, but I hate it. When there's no backspace, life suck. Maybe that's something bad about using the computer so so so much. I can't hit the backspace key this time. Everything is turning bad for the both of us. How?

We're constantly lying to ourselves. I know you still care about him, just that you don't show. From your personal message, I can see how much you put in that relation. Though it's already a past tense, but still you wish something gonna happen. But even if it were to, you won't accept. Maybe you just want to keep those memories. Still, I don't understand why, the same songs, can over and over again, upset you, make you tear.

I'll Keep Your Memories Vague.
Your Guardian Angel.
Angels Cry.
Love Song.
Your Confession.
And the list goes on..

Why?

Zach: Let's buy Ipoh sushi.
Bry: Again?
Zach: I'm craving for Ipoh sushi.
Bry: What Ipoh!?
Zach: Sushi, ass.
Bry: Is it nice? Like normal sushi or something special.
Zach: The sushi we always buy la.
Zach: You can get it almost everywhere.
Pris was thinking hard and she didn't speak a word.
Zach: That normal sushi we always get from Bedok.
Pris: *Points double middle finger* EDO!
Zach: Epo.
Pris: Wanna bet? I say Edo.
Bry: Yes bro, it's Edo. I know your Chinese suck but that has got nothing to do with not being able to read alphabets right. It's E-D-O. Not E-P-O.
Zach: Oh well, I learnt something new today.
Pris: *Inserts double middle finger.
Zach: Sorry la, how I know. I'm not a sushi fan.
Bry: But no way we can get it at this time. Some other time k.
Zach: Alright, STOP LAUGHING PRIS.
*Darryl walks down the stairs.
Darryl: What you guys laughing at.
Pris, Zach, Bry: EPO SUSHI.
Darryl: Oh it's nice but we can't get it at this time.
Pris: Dear, do you know that it's Edo, not Epo?
Darryl: Epo la.
Zach: Must be Darryl, he must be telling me Epo all the time. That's why I got influenced and say Epo. :D
Bry: Both's at fault, no excuse.
Bry: If the rest are here, especially Christy, confirm laugh like crazy.
Darryl: Laugh like no tomorrow.
Darryl: But all along I thought it was Epo sushi.
Zach: Whatever man.
Zach: I still prefer to call it Epo sushi.
*Pris ignores and walk up to her room.

Still at Pris's house. Zu and Lek went back. And I'm here waiting for Zach and Darryl to entertain me for the second round of Wii. Another day of from study and if I'm so gonna get less than 80 for my A levels, I can screw myself up because now, I think I have enough time to play.

Why?
Because I've been consistent enough. Unlike Pris and Lek. Let's not talk about ValG and Sean, they are 200% consistent muggers. Play hard, study smart, eat lots.

Ok peace out, time for dessert. Not desert ok, Malcom. Stop saying typo. I think you can't spell desert and dessert well, or that you don't understand their spelling.

Didn't attend school today. Over-exhausted myself cos of last night's 'late night' movie, yup like real. And just received Pris sms to ask me over for Wii session cos Zu feels like playing. So yup asked Lek to go down also. Finally AC boy decided to take a mugging leave. Wii will be super fun later on.

Oh, and Happy Children's Day!

Caught House Bunny today with Philander, Felix and Delwyn. It was nice, along with Felix laughters and everything. After that, Ruth and Christy came along, followed by Olivia. And we had dinner at Swensens. I didn't study much today but no guilt at all. Hmm..

I couldn't find her. Hope she's fine.

Anyway, Selamat Hari Raya to all Muslims and Happy Children's Day to all, be it you're a real kid below 12, or you're over-aged but childish, or, young at heart like me. Enjoy yourselves. Too bad, kids suffer from a day lesser of public holiday due to this little crash. But kids don't think much, so no worries.

Completed 2 sets of papers today. Not much sense of accomplishment because I aimed to do 4. Shall stay up to complete another 2 more sets to satisfy myself.
She's out, probably in a bad mood. I regret for the things I said, now we're no longer in contact, almost not even friends. Alright, I'll go and look for her and see if I can cheer her up.
Going out later with Philander, Felix and Delwyn to catch movie but nothing's up in our head yet. Oh well, I expect hell fun later.