Preliminary Examinations are OVER but..
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That doesn't mean that mugging stops.

Maxy and Macy is getting older.

We got them in Year 2000 Millennium, after Max left us for 2 months. Only today then I realise they're already 8 years old. Max's death hit us quite badly because he was there since I'm young. From year 1988 - 2000. 12 years of being with this family, Max, although he was a dog, but I guess I regarded him as a sibling because I've no other one to play with at home.

So yes, Max left. And Mom said I was very upset. So both herself and Dad decided to buy another 2 dogs to replace Max. It did help. Dad bought these two cute Golden Retrievers pups from some dog farm. At that time, they were still pups and it's easy for me to play with them. I was only 10 that time. And yes, I had fun playing with them. And I even bring them out every night for strolls together with Dad.

Time changed. As I moved on to Secondary, I've less time for them. I seldom bring them out for strolls. They laze around the garden most of the time. And only when Zu, Pris or Christy come over, they'll bring them out for a walk. Sucha lousy owner. But the time when Maxy vomitted really scare the hell out of me. I thought I'll go through another round of painful seperation. Then I really made the effort to spend more time with them.

I took of 30mins from my schedule everyday to just stroke or comb their hair. If you want to do maths, it's just 15mins per day, with each of them. And just 105mins per week, 5460mins per year. But they, on the other hand, spend more than 95% of their lives with me. They came to my house when they were barely 2 months old.

Macy is a sweet girl. She never fails to pound on me when I reach home. Both of them will be lying down in the shade, waiting for us to get home everyday, without fail. Maxy love to whine when I ignore her on purpose, while Macy will drag her cute dress out from their room on rainy days. They are like babies, who wants attention. But often, we humans only give them attention when we're free from our busy schedule.

Maxy, Macy.
They are my friends since 10. I can easy confide in them, though I get no reply. But from their expressions, I know they understood me, and they know exactly how I'm feeling. Both of them bought more laughters home. True indeed, they are human's best companions.

Maxy, Macy, I love you.

Everything's over. I'm at Zach's house now, together with Malcom, Olivia, Christy and Zu will be joining us later. Biology wasn't a kick actually. Hope this Prelim will turn out well and A levels will be better.

Sorry for not blogging for a week. At least it proves that Bry's studying. Not really actually. Cos I was like playing Wii for an average of 3 hours everyday once I reach home. You need some form of relaxation. We saw this gay who kicked a cat real hard yesterday and Zu went up to scold that man like mad. SPCA, that's what Pris said. Because of that commotion, I was almost late for school. Pris was late for school but thank God, she had time to finish her paper.

Prelims are over, but mugging continues.

Back from the Dog's outing!

Mabel's dad called and ask if I'm interested to bring Maxy and Macy out for a swim. That's pretty cool. They haven't been swimming for months and I think the last time was at Sentosa and I had a hard time bathing them after that cool hot dip. So yup, this time round, it's at U Pegamart, located at Pasir Ris.


Her dad came to pick us up, Mabel and Pooty was already on the car. After that I text Olivia about this cool thing and she asked Karen to drive her down with Sashay. The dogs had a nice time in the 20m pool I guess. It's really a nice place. Dog owners and try searching it on google or whatsoever. It's a nice experience but as for the cost, I'm not too sure because Mabel's dad paid full price. I'm gonna bring them there at least once every fortnight because I can see that they are really really really enjoying.


The next time, I'm bringing Jasmine's Bally and Zachery's Tigger there. Hahaha, it's really cool. Singapore have quiet alot of animal lovers who are willing to sacrifice their precious time to bring their darlings there also. But still, there are inconsiderate and inhumane bastards who never fail to spoil this nice sight. Yes, they're the abusers.

Papers, not of any great kick yet.

Till Biology takes my breath away when I flip open the paper. All the best all Bio students because I think it's the only challenge for A Levels. Go ValG, go Pris, go Malcom, go Lek, go Sally etc. And yes for the rest who are studying for tests/examinations/quizzes etc, all the very best. Time to sleep.

Children of Bodom.

I'm like listening to their music over and over again. Evil music, evil.. Since it's so uber near As, I have less time to spend with my family, friends, Maxy and Macy.

Macy whined today when I was about to feed her. Humph, I guess she knows my stress.

More or less ready for this Prelim.

Pardon me for this shorter and shorter entries. Because time is running out. Bryan have not much time left.

Will and will not.
It's a matter of your perspective.

Right now, I pity Zu. And maybe I was being selfish towards her. I always expect her to be there for me also. I know she always expect me to be there for her, and yes, I always do. I know she have many people to cheer them up, like myself, Pris etc. Sorry girl, for being so selfish.

This time, I'll stand up on my own.

Great news, great news.
(Trying to divert my attention and make myself feel better)

Dad's going church with us later. It's been sometime since the whole family went for church together. This time, Aunt Louisa and Aunt Jessie will be coming along too. Really, some time since we last went church as a family. We've been going for preachings at different timings, different days. Even Dad and I, seldom bump into each other at home anymore.

Sometimes it's because of one's selfishness. I was selfish to coop myself in the room to study, play Wii in the smaller hall, go out for meals. Dad was selfish to coop himself in his room to settle his company's business. Mom was selfish to move herself to Aunt Louisa's house every now and then because they have so much to talk under the moon. It's time we all be selfless, and start caring about this family. This family is already so small, the smallest family size. Parents, and a child.

I once thought I have a perfect family. Till I see Wilfwed's family, then I know what's the meaning of a truly perfect family. It's not what you say to each other. It's the action that speaks everything. Their family spells L-O-V-E. Mine spells B-U-S-Y. Both, with 4 alphabets, but totally different feeling and expressions. Sometimes, I find myself moving further away from Dad. We're less communicative these days. After A levels, is there enough time to pull back this family bonding?

Selfish, Selfless. Just a line apart.

Zilly have his roller coaster moments too. I'm not feeling too good, neither is she. Well, the first time both of us experience it together. I can't cheer someone up when I myself is feeling lousy. Darryl, Lek, Pris, cheer her up. Don't care about me, just make her smile.

Hope church will be able to brighten my day. I miss servicing. I miss playing with the elderly.

Back from McDonalds breakfast with those night owls. Yes yes, you can most prolly guess who they are. (Some imbecile hoping that I'll put down the name. And YOU are cursing while reading this because I'm still not putting their names up. Ah ah! I'm at Diya's house now.)

So yes, Diya is one of those on the list, if not, how on Earth did I end up at her place early in the morning? Needless to say, Kelvin is in because Diya's his girlfriend and he wouldn't allow her to have breakfast with me. Lol, Kelvin is never so selfish. He's willing to share his girlfriend with any other one. Bro, just kidding. Hahaha. Yup ok I know you're leaving this blog soon if I still don't reveal who are the rest of the owls. K la k la, here it is.

Zu, Weiboon, Youchuan, Davier, Sikai, Chunyong, Weihao, Leslie, ValG, Peifen, Makoto, Jayvier, Malcom, Mabel. Yes, Diya, Kelvin and myself too. (Now, imbecile grins from ear to ear, upon seeing who's on the list.) K, that's random. All of them are 99% dead with almost no energy left, except for Mabel who's peeping behind me now. Now now now!

Can you imagine 8 dead fishes lying on one queen-sized bed? Like they're taupok-ing each other. Well, one random conversation on MSN ended us up at McDonalds. How cool. Like that I've said in the previous entry, it's cool to make these kind of decisions, whereby you get to know great great pals through just one occasion.

Church later. Hold on, now Leslie pops in to see what I'm typing after Mabel mentioned me talking about his birthday party like 40s ago. Hell. Ok back to church. I'm going church later and I'm sacrificing my sleep time because I doubt I'll be able to drag myself up after a short nap. Ok, finished typing, time to cab home with Davier, Zu and Chunyong.

Worshipped for an hour today. I keep asking myself why am I myself. I know it sounds ridiculous, but have you ever wondered why you became like this today? Not the matter of what your dad and mom did in producing you, but the learning process.

How you landed up in this school, how on Earth did you know these nice bunch of friends, why did this and that happen, etc. My memories started from around Primary 3 I guess. And I'm totally blurred of what happened before that. Did I not work hard enough to enter a better school? Or that I'm actually an idiot, but I worked hard enough to land up in AJ?

It's hard to look for an answer. Very very hard.

Anyway, I'm finally back from dinner with Sikai, Chunyong and another uninvited friend, Ah Ong. LOL, and the above thoughts were after a sentence made by Ong. Maybe we're not who we are today if we didn't do something. Maybe we wouldn't know each other if we didn't go for Leslie's birthday party years back. Everything would have been different if that party didn't exist. I wouldn't know them, maybe my life would be in turmoil. There are so many transitions in our lives and maybe you took a different choice, you'll end up in different places, with different people and different outcome.

So far, I'm glad that from Primary 3 till now, I think I haven't make any big mistakes as to what choice I made. I'm lucky to have Dad, Mom, Aunt Louisa and friends who constantly guide and advice me without fail.

Come to think of it, I always say, I wish Zu will grow and be independent after her 17th birthday. But I think I myself haven't done enough to prove that I'm independent. Sometimes, I'm still relying on friends around me. Ironies of life huh, ValG? I haven't seen ValG for quite sometime. Yes, Lek too!

Task completed.

*Give yourself a nice pat.*

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*Patsssssss*

Finished my third set. At least I fufiled more than half of what I'm supposed to. Slowly slowy, Zilly, you're improving.

Hell, I'm meeting Sikai and Chunyong for dinner later, as in like 17 hours time. Another target, 4 sets today plus 2 hours of Wii session with Sikai and Chunyong. I will never procrastinate about playing cos I'm not a chao mugger. Chao mugger is such a nice term to use.

Procrastination, running circles in my head.

Sounds familiar? Seen it somewhere? Because it's the second time I'm posting exactly the same starting line. I'm procrastinating (and Zu will say, Hello Procrastinating), I'm the best procrastinator (Hello, The Best Procrastinator). I said I'll finish 3 sets Biology and 2 sets of Physics. Ended up, I did only per set each. Holy mama, PRISCILLA!

After seeing this, I'm sure chao muggers *New phrase learnt from Zu again, she's full of crap all the time* like Lek, ValG and Malcom will whine and say, chey Bryan is such a loser. Didn't even complete half of what he aimed. But hell no, they won't. I'm quite certain that they'll end up saying things like, omg he actually finished 2 sets? I did nothing at all!

Got it all right, bingo. Knew it.

2 plus more hours to finished another set of papers. Stop procrastinating, Zilly.

Dinner again, 2 consecutive night of good food. Fats, on their way here. Anyhow, she teared upon retarded Malcom's comment. Hmm, don't think too much alright. I know your mom must be feeling sorry for not being able to spend your birthday with you. She'll make up with it for sure. You're seventeen, you must learn to be an understanding daughter.

12 roses for you, and the cool jeans. I know you'll love it. I promise to get you another stuff from your to-get-list regardless of price. You can keep it and redeem it in 10 years time. Get a bungalow or whatever, it still holds. A promise is a promise and Zilly will never back out on it. Last half an hour, enjoy.

Your tears DON'T fall.

Back from Zu's house. Went for a not so surprising surprise attack with Mel, Pris, Darryl, Zach, Christy, Shihan, Hanpeng, Joey, Davier, Marcus, Victor, Mabel, Sikai, Yongrui, Chunyong, Kelvin, Skye, Diya and ValG.

You're finally Seventeen. It's time you learn to be independent, and stop relying on others. It's time you prioritise your priorities and make your rightful decisions. Thank you for being there 24-7 for the past 3 years. I know our status will forever remain like this but, yes, so long as you smile..

I know you're upset, cos your parents and sister are away. You still have us. Birthday celebration, doesn't really matter when. I know what matters most is the people you're spending it with. You have your classmates, you have us, you have your pigs, you have Megan and Kaihern. Hope you like the presents and the roses I got for you.

Happy Seventeenth, my girl.

I told y'all that I'll come home and study at 4pm. Guess what? I didn't go out today. I understand Dad, he's lots of stuffs coming up. His company dinner which made him real busy planning, the projects his dealing. It's ok, Zilly shall study hard and get the rewards later.

Did I mention, I got the Gucci shades already. Shihan got it long ago but I didn't have a chance to meet him. It's a hot baby, I tell y'all. The shades, omg. Thanks, Han. I realise people around me have almost similar names as mine. As in, people I'm closer with. Check this out.

Shihan.
Hanpeng.
Weiboon.
Weihao.
Hanwei. (Zach)
Hanxun.
Hanliang.
Weilong. (Wilfwed)

And you notice, Zachery's Chinese name, Hanwei. That's gay shit because it's just the inverse of mine. I'm Wei Han, and he's Han Wei. Gay! But maybe that's why we hit off well. I have no idea if he's lying or anything because Zachy's I/C only says Zachery Ian Sze Ma. So it'll be armpit hair funny (learnt from Leslie) if his name were to be printed as "Zachery Ian Sze Ma Han Wei". Even longer than Japanese's name.

That's all the Wei and Han people I love. Opppps, disgusted.

Bryan (Evan) Lee Wei Han
Zachery (Ian) Sze Ma Han Wei
Davier (Andreas) Tan Wei Jie
Caleb (Illidius) Xiao Yi Jun

Christy's name will be revealed in 3 days time.
Stay tuned.

"The Last Night" woke me up.

Christy says it's cool with entries like.. "whatever whatever" woke me up etc. Well, whatever I say, Christy will say that it's cool. Anyhow, I'm all ready to leave home but Dad's on an important call. Let's hope he's not taken up this afternoon because his precious son will become a gloomy bear.

I'm 2kg heavier now, damn. I'm one step nearer to Hanpeng. I've decided on what to get already. I'm buying like 2 NUM Party Tanks, maybe Havaianas. Then off to check out the cool G-Masks for my Ipod Touch. I wanna buy new shirts from Ralph Lauren and maybe FCUK. I wanna have some nice food, a nice movie bla bla..

*Slap*

*Slaps*

*Slap again*

Prelims right in front of you and you jolly well get that into your head. You think you've finished As? I say no. Zachy says no too!

Uh well, dad's back, I've so so so much to tell him. The stress I had etc. And he added that he'll treat Zach, Mak and Zu out for a great feast for letting me stay over during my lonely nights. Holy crap.

Church at 8am, that was great. I had barely 3 hours of sleep before my "One Step At A Time" starts ringing. Went for Church. Dad and mom joined after that and I was hell happy. Smiling like some small kid who finally gotten his lollipop. Sorry, wrong analogy. Preaching was ok. Caleb came back to church today. Things are so far alright for him and let's hope his body is able to adapt.

I'm chatting with Zach, Zu now. Crap. Now, my name's Zryan, just to be cool. Cos' Zu says: Only Zs are cool. So I shall be Zryan. Here the conversation goes.

Billy HAHAHA says:
So I don't care, I'm Zryan now.

Zach says:
Change your nick to Zilly then.

Zilly HAHAHA says:
There you go.

Zach says:
Change your nick to Zilly then.

(dung) · Z hate you says:
Silly la you, idiot.

Zach says:
He's an idiot, but so weird huh, you still love an idiot.

(dung) · Z hate you says:
Shut up!

Zach says:
But you look more SILLY than Zryan.

Zilly HAHAHA says:
Exactly, you silly pig.

(dung) · Z hate you says:
Then I'm silly la! Hahaha, Zilly, Silly.

(dung) · Z hate you says:
Eh, Zach, find something for yourself lei! Okok? On laa~~

Zach says:
Zachy?

Zilly HAHAHA says:
Sounds gay. Uh well..

(dung) · Z hate you says:
Okok, so it's Silly, Zilly, Zachy.

(dung) · Z hate you says:
But hor, Zachy like don't ryhme with us lei.

(dung) · Z hate you says:
Find something with ILLY.

Zach says:
But both Zilly and Silly are taken up.

(dung) · Z hate you says:
Hmmm, Zachy then. :(

Zach says:
This trick works. Don't tell me you're sulking for real.

Zilly HAHAHA says:
Yeah, if only you believe.

Zachy says:
Change your nick please, Silly.

Silly says:
Changed.

Zachy says:
Btw, why's Zry's nickname Zilly. No link at all.

Zilly HAHAHA says:
B.Lee remember? Then Billy, Zilly..

Silly says:
Nice transformation la.

Silly says:
Don't chat with you all already, byebye.

Silly says:
LAME LAME LAME LAME LAME! :D

Zachy says:
Erm, why are you still here? Just leave the convo.

Silly says:
Don't want lei, lalalalala, please me la!

Zilly HAHAHA says:
Thank God for you Zu, seriously.

Zilly HAHAHA says:
You never fail to make me laugh like some lunatic.

Zachy says:
Same here, I'm really laughing out loud.

Zachy says:
In short, LOL.

Silly says:
Of course you must thank god for me la.

Silly says:
Wah lao, I'm the coolest thing you can ever have lor.

Zachy says:
To make you happy, I say yes~

Silly says:
Walao, again. Don't add that ~~~~

Silly says:
Your worm not cute la..

Zilly HAHAHA says:
What worm?

Silly says:
Neh.. ~~~~~~ <--- worm

Zachy says:
Ms Shit Universe goes to you, my dear.

Zilly HAHAHA says:
Eeeee don't call me dear leh..

Silly says:
Eww, don't anyhow call me dear..

Silly says:
Zilly, you're so smart!

Zilly HAHAHA says:
Of course.

Zachy says:
Reward him with a kiss.

Silly says:
_l_


Omg, she can really make us laugh like idiots. Whenever you're feeling low, just pray hard that Ms Nonsense is online (provided that she's happy). Nonstop entertainment from her, even though what she's gonna reply is more or less expected. Well, my mom calls her the "kai xin guo". Happy fruit, for direct translation. Never fails to brighten us up. Well, need to sleep early tonight. I'm going out with dad tomorrow for shopping and I have to reach home before 4pm to start revising for my Prelims. Bye!

Steamboat was cool.

It's supposed to be steaming hot, I know. Apparently, very few turned up today due to the busy schedules etc. So those who turned up are classified as PIGS because we really manage to gobble up food that are meant for twice the amount. 6 people turned up. Leslie, Myself, Pris, Darryl, Mabel, Zachery. Some random entertainment.

Zu: Eh walau why all got angmo name.
Pris: Cos we're cool.
Zu: I don't mind being hot. -grins
Zach: Shit you, full of nonsense.
Zu: That's my brother.
Darryl: You mean, Kaihern's full of nonsense?
Kaihern: No la, her school one.
Zu: Yah, my schoolmate. I call him Nonsense.
Mab: Random lameness. -stares
Zu: Eh Zach, we both Z must help each other.
Zu: Alias alias. Come come.
Leslie: Fuck bo liao la. -middle finger.
Bryan: Sexy middle finger.
Leslie: Of course! It's naked that's why.
Everyone: FUCK.

Steamboat was ok but we refrained from touching alcoholic drinks this time because there's school tomorrow. I miss Christy ok. Btw Caleb's getting better and he has found a suitable donor. Hope everything turns out well for him.

Pray.

Steamboat at Zu's house later!

We're going to the night market later. We shall hunt all food down and play all stupid games as a form of distressing. I so so so miss Christy. Biatch, I'm seeing her in.. 1 hour time. That's the worst thing that can ever happen to me. Best part is that YY will be coming along. Haven't seen him for a trillion years. Shit ass cool, the night market will only be filled with our laughter, and still our laughter.

That smile on your face, time to come back.

I'm going over to Zu's place to stay over. My house's so pathetic cos Mom went over to Aunt Sarah's house. Nah, I'm not going to school again tomorrow.

Somethings are best left unsaid.

Zu, don't sulk k?!



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I seldom fail to do so. But this time, I failed. Thank God for having Zach there to hear her out when I'm unable to step out of the house. I suddenly miss the good old times, like what Sheree always say. After my As, we'll have more fun. Sorry friends, studies is taking over friends, but friends will forever be my priority.

Zachery will be here at 7 to play Wii, that loser.

I know what to fill in for my blanks an hour ago.

Because.. (I am terribly ill).

Skipped school because.. (I don't know why).

Prelims are here, Bryan, it's time you shine.

Hmm, something caused me to lose all my 7 smileys. I don't know. I know I'm selfish, but.. Sometimes I wish you can also understand me. I wish I can understand you better also. I'll get back more smileys, so don't worry.

Pris is jealous, see and you'll know why.

Holy Moma Ass says:
Pardon me, I think you've made an error.

(handsome) · B says:
Again? /acting blur

Holy Moma Ass says: Typing error spotted in your most recent entry!

Holy Moma Ass says: Diya should become Pris, Kelvin should become Darryl.

(handsome) · B says:
That's a pretty nice joke.

Holy Moma Ass says:
C'mon, change it dudeyyyy, Prissssy gonna lublub you.

Holy Moma Ass says:
I miss disturbing my pig pig.

Holy Moma Ass says:
Remember?
Weihao lub lub you, chubby chubby.

(handsome) · B says:
Yes, for sure I remember, first damn joke that lasted us for long.

(handsome) · B says:
The longest I mean.

Holy Moma Ass says:
No changing of topic if not you gonna fail GP.

(handsome) · B says:
AJ's better or NY? Ask yourself!

Holy Moma Ass says:
Fuck, there's no error in your entry.
Bye ass hair.

(handsome) · B says:
New invention? Ass hair? Holy moma!

Holy Moma Ass says:
Yes, holy moma reporting here!

Holy Moma Ass says:
Yes I'm jealous. This convo is funny.

Holy Moma Ass says:
I'm gonna post this history on my blog.

(handsome) · B says:
Likewise.

(handsome) · B says: Let's disturb Lekkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!

Holy Moma Ass says:
What's with your multiple Ks?!

(handsome) · B says:
ks you mean? Small case plese. I didn't say LeKKKK!

Holy Moma Ass says:
Fuck you __

(handsome) · B says:
Don't swear. __ (3 fingers)

Holy Moma Ass says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA THIS CRACKED ME UP.
NICE IDEA! __

(handsome) · B says:
Zu's idea, she was swearing like this that day, on MSN.

Holy Moma Ass says:
Fuck off, NY girl wanna study.

(handsome) · B says:
So do AJ boy.

Holy Moma Ass says:
AC boy is mugging already that's why he's not replying.

(handsome) · B says:
VJ girl is also mugging. She haven't reply since 2 hours ago I nudge her.

Holy Moma Ass says: She's not mugging, sir. She's watching MTV Asia. Hahaha, and she doesn't want to reply you. Dah-lalas!

(handsome) · B says: Well, AJ boy wanna study.

Holy Moma Ass says:
Bye AJ boy. NY girl rock.

Skillet's The Last Night..

ROCK BIG TIME. I've been setting it on repeat for days. Imagine plucking in your earpiece for at least 8 hours a day, with at least 5 hours of Skillet's song, inclusive of at least 2 hours of The Last Night. It's not proportionate. By the way, Diya and Kelvin came along. Nothing gets boring with this couple.

Drinking session, 2am at Shihan's place. Drink to our hearts content, tonight we shall release all stress. Let's hope I don't get a heavy hangover.

ValG dinner was superb. VJ girls can actually make good wives. Haha, but definitely not ValG. After seeing my praising text, Pris and Darryl decides to crash dinner at my place. Having steamboat at Zu's place on Wednesday, hopefully. Her parents and sis are going to Japan for holiday. Means, steamboats and more steamboats!

For once I agree, ValG is a good cook.
(My Foot!)

*7 smileys for me but she has 11.

Guess I pissed Mab off with my, neh neh neh.

Hallelujah, it's weekend!

Didn't attend school. Stayed at home and studied real hard. Malcom took early leave for my home study. Hahaha, ValG is coming over to cook us dinner. This happens when VJ kid gets to stress. They become as old as their mom. Grandma I mean.

P/S ValG's granny cook instead of her mom.

Less than an hour of sleep. Maybe I should just skip school. My eyes are swollen, like a goldfish.

Z is collecting smileys, so is Bryan. The happiest kid gets free Ben and Jerry from the most unhappy kid. Yeah right, then Zach gonna lose big time. Keep up with your positive thinking, don't set us worrying.

Inevitably, my eyes welled up with tears.

I read what she wrote, Meg showed it to me while she was going missing. Although the story was not so similar, but I can feel that she was thinking about Ber at that point of time. Say I'm sensitive, yes, I am. It's not about the content of the compo, but the actual person that you know she's talking about. It starts to hurt, though I very much want to hold myself back.

This is an issue we have to get over, but it's not easy. Occasionally when people talk about it, or something similar, all the images start flowing back and they seem to be happening right now. Although they are blurred images, but it does hurt. I can still vividly remember his pale, ghastly face. I still kept the letter he wrote. He was a nice brother.

Ber, you are missed.
God, have mercy on his soul. Bless him.