He told us that he's abnegating. He can't take it anymore. Looking at the frailly him, Philander and I had the same question in mind. And that is, if we didn't find out exactly what happened, will he feel happier, because friends around him are not troubled and worried. Maybe it's us that he's worried about and that's why, he can't set his mind on thinking that he'll recover.

Caleb, you can't read this, but it's ok. Whatever it is, we'll wait for you to recover and do more servicing together like how we used to. Don't talk to us about abnegation. We don't want to hear that. We will be awaiting for your good news.

When I see your face, tears run down my face.. So true. Philander and I teared while talking about Caleb, as usual.