Fingers just can't stop typing..

Back from the crab feast. I didn't know I was put in such awkward position too. The sitting arrangement was totally sucky. She was stuck in between the both of us. Throughout the dinner, her head seemed to hand on a sprained neck. All she did was keep talking to me, trying to avoid the embarrassments. Dumb Hanpeng and his idea.

Davier asked awkward questions, she tried changing topic. For a moment, I thought my soul left my body. I wasn't my usual self. That kinda feeling when you're at a super bright shopping mall, where everything seems so unfamiliar, like a total stranger. That feel suck. For once, I thought I'm in another world of my own.

Dinner. It was salvaged by dearest Pris and Darryl with their random slapstick humor and I really really want to thank the both of you for helping her. Z wasn't behaving like her usual self. I know today is a total shit for her because imbecile like Hanpeng tried putting both of them together. Remember, my reason (d) in the previous post?

We had crabs, shark fin, fish, etc. Free meals are always nice, regardless of what. Sounds like some budget beggar on street but hey, Pengpeng is paying. But I really hated him for the idea of "matchmaking 2". I pity Zu for being in such position, I pity Davier for being ignored by Zu, I pity myself for being stuck in between.

We fought over her, and now she's sitting in between us. The feeling is like a movie. Like the both of us are fighting over her due to jealously. After sending her home, Davier and I had a nice talk. None will eventually get her because she won't want another relationship. All we can do is to pray hard and clear all her obstacles. Sometimes I wonder, till when can we protect her? Till the day she get a new love, the day she really grow up and stop being so wilful, or the day I die. I promise, I'll protect her, like how Joey, Hanpeng, Shihan, Kent, and Davier will.

You're the youngest among us. And maybe that's why, you're the most pampered, the one who always can't stand up on your own. When you fall, you always expect one of us to hold your hand and help you up. When you face problems, you have the tendency to wait for us to solve it for you. We can protect you, but.. Try to be independent. You must grow, you must.

We always help you, regardless of what. We give in to you, because we dote on you. The society is cruel and not everyone will do whatever you want. We're your brothers and sisters, that's why we don't mind giving you whatever you want. When it's time, all of us will be doing our own stuffs. We want to see you grow, we want to see you solve your problems like an adult.

And to Davier, we're been friends since young, we were brothers. Now, it seems like we're no longer as close. Due to her, due to studies and other commitments. But please, don't put her in a difficult position. Makoto, yourself, Zu and I will always be the Best Four together. I wish we can get back to the past where we play and create havoc wherever we go. Sometimes, letting go is the best thing.

Life is painting, like what Charis say. Paint it well, paint it good.