Take a knife and pierce through my heart.

It's not the first time I'm feeling it this way. There's so many heartbreaking issues floating around me. I don't know which to pick up. As a guy, we're expected not to shed a single tear for anything, but why? Mom felt my heartache, so so totally understand how I feel.

It's been a week since I last smile. Oh, smile, where are you? I want to bring joy to everyone around, but I can't because I myself is not feeling good. I'm not a good actor. You guys don't have to be an actor/actress to clown and cheer others up. Churchies, take care of yourselves. We're the pillar of each other, the pillar of our friends, our family. God will see him through, I hope..