Worshipped for an hour today. I keep asking myself why am I myself. I know it sounds ridiculous, but have you ever wondered why you became like this today? Not the matter of what your dad and mom did in producing you, but the learning process.

How you landed up in this school, how on Earth did you know these nice bunch of friends, why did this and that happen, etc. My memories started from around Primary 3 I guess. And I'm totally blurred of what happened before that. Did I not work hard enough to enter a better school? Or that I'm actually an idiot, but I worked hard enough to land up in AJ?

It's hard to look for an answer. Very very hard.

Anyway, I'm finally back from dinner with Sikai, Chunyong and another uninvited friend, Ah Ong. LOL, and the above thoughts were after a sentence made by Ong. Maybe we're not who we are today if we didn't do something. Maybe we wouldn't know each other if we didn't go for Leslie's birthday party years back. Everything would have been different if that party didn't exist. I wouldn't know them, maybe my life would be in turmoil. There are so many transitions in our lives and maybe you took a different choice, you'll end up in different places, with different people and different outcome.

So far, I'm glad that from Primary 3 till now, I think I haven't make any big mistakes as to what choice I made. I'm lucky to have Dad, Mom, Aunt Louisa and friends who constantly guide and advice me without fail.

Come to think of it, I always say, I wish Zu will grow and be independent after her 17th birthday. But I think I myself haven't done enough to prove that I'm independent. Sometimes, I'm still relying on friends around me. Ironies of life huh, ValG? I haven't seen ValG for quite sometime. Yes, Lek too!