You're getting me worried, hell worried.

I know it's not easy for you to face it alone. Especially when everyone is leaving you, to start afresh again. Whenever you feel like giving up, look back to this entry. You know you always have us. And I hope you understand my point, why I insist on you retaining.

27 point is just one point lesser from the retaking criteria, I know the feeling suck. Because you're just so near to retaking and making yourself eligible for retaining. You wish you've gotten 28, or even 35, 40 points. Still, we will advise you to repeat and brush up on your J1 work. You know yourself better than everyone else. Given the time and hardwork, you will be able to do way better if not for you playing and wasting time this year.

Take this as a stepping stone, something you learn from, and not cry from. What happened has already happened. Like you said, your teachers did everything to help you. Trust me, repeating will be better for you. Even if you were to get 47 points today, it may not lead you to good A level results, it may not. Take this one extra year to really learn and brush up on every single thing you don't understand. 3 year route in JC, there's no shame, no one gonna laugh at you. If anyone were to, prove him/her that you're capable of getting better results and you didn't regret retaining.

I know you keep telling yourself that if you promote, you'll work hard. Given your character, think again. You know you'll still play and think that since I can scrape through J1, I can do it for As also. As is way harder than promotional examination. You know the fact and you ain't gonna lie to yourself.

Stop saying that you disappointed your family, us and your friends. No one wish to see this happen. Work hard and no one will blame you. We all know that you're smart just that you're lazy and too last minute. Now that you've learnt your lesson, nothing's too late. You're still going to enter University one day, who cares about how long you take? It'll be worse if you get promoted and fail your A levels next year. Understand me, really.

Polytechnic must be in your mind now. Think what's best for yourself. I can't decide for you, everything's yours. Whether you take it or not. Like what Silas say, there's always the silver lining beyond the dark clouds. Think positive. Very very positive. You're going to outshine others and be the next top scholar of SR. We have faith in you, you'll see you through.

As for him, I guess you don't have to think so much either. Your friends will walk you through this journey, so will Him. God bless her.