Finally reached Chicago and home is in a mess. Zach claims that the part time housekeeper haven't been doing her job. I bet they kept all the money and went for party themselves. It feels nice to see that 4 monkeys again. Especially Priscilla who keeps pestering me for her gifts etc and I really miss her annoyance. And of course I miss Zu's craps.

The flight wasn't really smooth. The captain sorta failed his flight test or something? Well, thank God I'm back safely at Chicago. Picture to be loaded soon. I can't find the darn setup disc for my new Sony camera. It's 3pm here and I'm really tired because I did last minute packing at Aunt Illenea's place and yes, I skipped my sleep.

Nainai and Aunt Louisa is here at our house in Chicago for a few days before they return back to Singapore on the 10th. I wish I can follow them back but I'm starting school soon. Here Priscilla goes "Why you bring your Nainai back. Shiaaaat you, super naggy you know? She'll ask us to sleep early bla bla bla." Yes Priscilla is an anti-elderly. I think, especially for my Nainai because we can't stay out late with her at home.

Took approximately 1200 pictures. Mostly from the Christmas and New Year celebration. Some of the Eiffel tower pictures, Disneyland pictures. And some on the plane. Great days are sort because I feel like I just went over Paris for a few days and I'm back in Chicago. Still, home sick. I miss the Singapore days, chilling out with Natchew and company, Zu the Silly, Leslie, LEK, Mabel that wild girl and my bunch of churchies and Pastor Nathaniel!

Anyway, back here in Chicago with a perfect connection, (thank Darryl for this because Zach and Pris were busy partying and left Darryl all alone to fiddle with the sucky connection), I found something disheartening, or disappointing? I don't really know what's up in my head now. A little bit of frustration, disappointment, worry, and the worst feeling is to feel like I've let myself down and did the wrong choice to study in Chicago.

I've entrusted the wrong person, for now I think. It's hard for people to read you fully. They need lots and lots of time to understand you. I left too early too soon, that he hasn't have enough time to understand you. And the days you're unhappy and upset is even more than before I left. Don't worry, you can always call Pris to reach me silly. You have to start thinking for what you really want. Just to let you know, for no matter what it is, we are still here, just that much further away. Even till death do us apart, I'll still be there watching you. God bless her.

Anyway, I'm making my blog private soon so you people better send me a mail for an invitation to EngulfingTruth. Email to bryanevanlee@hotmail.com.

1 Timothy 6:12
Fight the good fight of faith; take hold of the eternal life to which you were called, and you made the good confession in the presence of many witnesses.

For you, and you'll have to stand up on your own in days to come if no one's there for you physically. I really want to see a completely strong girl. Make up your mind, and go for it. Who cares that the rest say about you. Priscilla says: Zuzu, jiayou!